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Yeah, I was a little sad today. I’ve been mopey and disgruntled for the last 2 weeks. I felt like I was being constantly assailed by the store displays and commercials. I did fine last year, but this Mother’s Day? Not so good.

I miss my Mom very, very much. I think about her almost every day. I hope people who still have their Mom (or maternal figure) in their lives really cherish them, but I know all too well that feeling of having more than enough time. Now I know the feeling of running out of time. Gone too soon. You never DO miss your water, until your well runs dry.

The other thing that has bothered me this Mother’s Day was the barrage of think pieces about how childless women suffer on Mother’s Day. Really, y’all? Really? I’m a childless woman and I’ve never thought of Mother’s Day as some sort of affront to my womanhood. I have not one time felt as if I was being mocked by Mother’s Day or made to feel ‘less than’ because I have no children. Of course, I always had a Mother to celebrate on Mother’s day! But I always took time out to celebrate my friends, co-workers and complete strangers that were Mothers as well.

Now I can understand that for women that want children and are for some reason unable to conceive, adopt or foster, Mother’s Day can be a difficult day. But is it really reasonable to expect and/or assume that ALL childless women feel burdened, nay shamed, by Mother’s Day? It just feels like a(nother) cheap attempt to create false indignation (and clicks) because there is something happening from which you specifically cannot benefit.

The problem with fake outrage is that it drowns out real justified outrage. – @KidFury (WORD!)

 

Annnnyway, Mother’s Day is almost over now. I shed some tears this morning but I’m okay now. I usually try to focus on what I have and not on what I’ve lost but today I just couldn’t do it. I miss my Mom, y’all. I really, really miss her. She was my foundation, my rock, my touchstone. Now I feel like a table with one leg that’s too short, so I cannot balance. My equilibrium is out of wack. I know she’d want better for me than to be sad and wallow, but sometimes that’s the best I can do. I have tried to remember two things since my Mom died. One, if you love somebody, show them, TELL them while they’re alive! And two, life is short. If there’s something you want to do, DO IT. You never really know when you’ll run out of time.

 

Me (almost 6 months) & Mom

Me (almost 6 months) & Mom

Snow Day 02.16.15

 

My Weekend of Catch Up turned into An Extended Weekend Thanks To Sleet And Ice. Ohhhhh, family. Let. Me. Tell. YOU. I could soooooo get used to this. Afternoon naps every day? YES. Staying up late like a teenager watching TV. YES.  Watching allllll the TV? YES.

Yes, freezing rain, sleet, snow and ice came to the Mid-South this week. Lots of ice! The picture above looks innocuous enough, but that is thick, solid ice. Yeesh.

So! I had lots and lots and lots of time to catch up on shows. And catch up I did! Let’s just look at the tally, please!

Constantine, 4 eps

Empire, 3 eps

Banshee, 2 eps

Forever, 2 eps

Agent Carter, 3 eps

Castle, 3 eps

Brooklyn Nine-Nine, 1 ep

Black-ish, 1 ep

Sleepy Hollow, 1 ep

Grimm, 3 eps

Arrow, 1 ep

Archer, 1 ep

Girlfriends Guide to Divorce, 1 ep

BAM! I watched alllll of the shows! A great way to spend time on snowed/iced in days.

 

Now, I still have 2 or 3 eps of Cougar Town & 1 ep of Agent Carter left to watch. Oh, and Arrow, Empire and Black-ish from tonight. Well, hell.

 

The good news for me is that Sleepy Hollow, Girlfriends Guide, and Agent Carter have only 1 more episode each. And after this week, all my CW shows are going on hiatus for a few weeks. Leaving me with more time to stay current on the 400 shows that I watch. And to watch the shows I meant to start but haven’t yet. And to watch the shows I started but haven’t finished. And to find new shows….

 

*sigh*

 

So much TV, so little time…..

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Yeeeeeeah, I am SO behind on shows!

2015 hasn’t been bad so far, just busy as hell! Too busy as a matter of fact. Too busy for me to keep up with the eleventy-dozen shows I’m watching.

In a conversation with a friend, I realized I was keeping up with 17 shows. 17. They weren’t all airing at the same time, but still! When I told her that I needed an intervention, her response? “But when would you have the time?”

HA! I love my sassy friends! But I realized later on that I had actually under counted how many shows I watch. *coughtwentycough*

So! This weekend is the Weekend of Catching Up! Now, I did say the same thing the past two weekends, but that’s not the point here. Heh. This weekend three things MUST happen:

 

1. Watch the last four episodes of Constantine.

Constantine

LOVE this show! It’s spooky and scary and supernatural-y. I hope it gets a second season..somewhere. Since tonight is Friday the 13th (how appropriate!), I will do this TONIGHT.

 

2. Catch up on Empire

Empire

I am 3 eps behind now. LOVE this crazy, soapy, melodramatic show! The pilot was SO DAMN GOOD, people! And it just took off from there. The music is great too! Besides cast members Taraji P. Henson & Terence Howard, guest stars include Gladys Knight, Cuba Gooding, Jr., Courtney Love, Naomi Campbell and Raven-Symone. Damn! If you aren’t watching Empire, I just don’t even know what to say to you right now.

 

3. Start Banshee, season 2

Banshee

I have the first disc of S2 from Netflix in my hot little hand! Love this crazy ass show. S3 is currently airing and I hear the quality (and crazy) is just as good. The show even got a S4 renewal. Fans of heist movies and Elmore Leonard novels (among others) would really love this show.

And then there’s 3 eps of Grimm and Agent Carter, 2 eps of Forever and Castle, 1 ep each of Arrow, Archer, Black-ish and Sleepy Hollow. Margaret Cho’s All About Sex is sitting on my DVR. I have S2 of The Americans, House of Cards and Orange Is The New Black to finish. And I hear that I need to watch Transparent and Bosch. And I HAVE to tell you about how much I really, really enjoyed Bojack  Horseman. And Happy Valley. And Girlfriends Guide to Divorce! And this final season of Justified is damn near perfect so far! *stops to breathe*

And what are YOU watching?

valeriel40:

James Garfield forever!

Originally posted on The Bloggess:

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Remember in 2010 when I gave out gift cards in the name of James Garfield (the taxidermied boar) to the first twenty people who told me they didn’t know how they were going to afford toys for their kids this year?  And it was awesome until  it became very apparent that there were more people who needed help, but then you guys came to the rescue and suddenly there were $40,000+ worth of donations from strangers to strangers?  That was awesome.  And exhausting.

Then in 2011 we worked together to sponsor Project Night Night Bags (a bag with a security blanket, a book and a stuffed animal) to 750 homeless children.

In 2012 we helped get Project Night Night Bags to 1,000 children who were homeless, or were displaced by Hurricane Sandy.

Last year we donated tens of thousands of dollars of bees, oxen, and llamas around the…

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12.13.14

On this, the last sequential date of the 21st century, I again find myself marveling at the wonders of life.

I haven’t done most of the things I thought that I would have done by this point in 2014.

I have been besieged at times by the paralysis of loss, but I am still HERE.

I haven’t accomplished tasks perfectly, or even well at times, but I completed them.

I peer critically at the person that I am and am both fascinated and exasperated.

I am not as hard on myself, or other people, as I once was.

I want to feel better, do better, be better. But where I am is okay too. (I say, reminding myself.)

I find no appeal in “celebrating” Christmas this year. For no other reason than I have no interest. Just thinking of doing all that stuff (putting up a tree, sending out cards, thinking of what gifts to buy, blahblahblah) exhausts me. I am delighted with the time off of work though.

I am thoughtful and curious about what 2015 will bring. Will I be amazed? Will I make a difference? Will I continue to open myself up to the love and beauty around me?

 

I sure hope so.

So after reading this post by The Bloggess, I decided I would try the latest “thing” by googling my first name and the word “meme” and post the images that come up. Let’s see…..

 

1

Aw, that’s cool.

 

1.5

Fun!

 

2

Tis true!

 

3

Right on, right on…

 

3.5

This meme has always kinda disturbed me.

 

4

Ok, kinda rude…

 

4.5

The shouty 300 jokes always make me laugh.

 

5

Well, damn….

 

5.5

Ok, that’s fucking scary! And gross!

 

 

This? Is my favorite, by far.

 

6

I can’t guesstimate how many people have said that exact same thing over the years. LOL!

 

 

Now YOU try it.

 

Life Without The Dog

valeriel40:

It was a year ago yesterday. I still miss my boy so, so much. I wish I could hug him right now! *sniff*

Originally posted on Don't Play!:

I miss The Dog.

A lot.

It’s way too quiet in here  now.

I washed his bowls and stuff. But I left them out, in their usual places, because I just can’t deal with putting them away.

No more walks in the cold or rain. No more cleaning up accidents on the carpet. No more leaving functions early cuz I have to get home to attend to UNO.

Freedom. Yay?

I’ve been up half the night and sleeping late into the morning.

And you cannot imagine the amount of food I spill every time I eat! It’s ridiculous actually.

No more canine vacuum cleaner. I actually have to pick up after myself! *two thumbs down*

Way down.

I miss The Dog.

A lot.

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